This is so true on our path to sobriety. Sometimes we get derailed in our efforts and have to start back to get that train rolling. I’m happily rolling in the sober car – day 21 in the books.
I will continue to work this day by day knowing that I can only do this one day at a time.
I’m wrapping up today – another load to the new place (over 45 boxes moved on my own yesterday and today). I work 2 more days and then off Thur/Friday with my big move Saturday. The guys helping will be grateful most of the small stuff is done. The whole drinking/worrying issue may be avoided because I have done so much work on my own they will be done by lunch time so there won’t be much drinking as they will likely want to get on with their day.
I had a rotten weekend and waking up to my birthday today – realize that moderation is NOT an option for me. Once I have that first drink, it’s like I can’t get enough and waking up this morning, I realize that I’m done WASTING my life away with booze.
May today be my last day 1 AF ever and may I seek all the help and support I need to keep me on the path of sobriety. May I prove to myself most of all that I can do this – for me and for my children so that we can live a better life.
I was hit this weekend with just how I am letting life pass me by as I sit and sulk in a depressed state of mind, brought on by my indulgence in ‘the voice’ that called me out on Friday and stayed with me until yesterday. I’m waking up this morning and praying for strength to keep me on path to true sobriety.