I had the Day 1 AF – and then life happened… my 14 year old threw some more ‘stuff’ my way and I wasn’t AF yesterday but I’m not losing grip on my progress. Even if I start with a few days a week AF – it’s better than my recent track record and I need to be gentle with myself because if I beat myself up I get the FUCK IT attitude and figure what’s the point…
Progress is progress. One day at a time. It’s a beautiful day today – the sun is shining and I have plans to see my guy after work. I’m going to focus on making it a great UP day after a tough day yesterday!
I need to get back to business here … and admit that my daily drinking routine has to STOP. The goals that I have been striving for (losing weight) are slipping away and I see it affecting my life in other ways too. While I have said many times that I can’t fathom swearing off ‘da booze for good – I do need to swear it off in order to focus on achieving some life goals. My last booze free day was March 31st.
My weight is up to an all time high (I haven’t been this high since my pregnancies) and it’s not a good feeling.
I need to focus on that which I want and recognize that I can’t start ‘tomorrow’ because that day never comes. It starts with making ONE small change at a time – and for now my focus is simply on cutting out the booze again out of my daily diet.
My life is good and I don’t want to self-sabotage anymore. I need to get a grip and as my profile says – I want to be in control and not have alcohol be in control. It starts now… I want to conquer this once and for all!